Awareness


Pleasantly surprised by my own success: People choosing to avoid flying for their own reasons

For some time I've been saying, half-jokingly, to people who start showing an interest in more sustainability with me: "Be careful spending time with me or you may find yourself avoiding flying and telling me how much it improves your life not to fly." I don't want to overstate things since only a few people have said it so far, but increasingly people are saying just that sentiment to me. More than one have decided to stop flying altogether. Others are cutting way down. Most importantly, they're doing it to improve their lives, partly to enjoy their worlds more and partly to enjoy their relationships more, but I think mainly out of compassion with and connection to all people everywhere who would suffer for their…

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We can’t turn off our emotional systems and we all share the same emotions.

I've held off on writing this post since I think some people may misunderstand me. My goal is to help raise self-awareness. NYU has posted posters like this one all over campus. I think they are mostly responding to the Israel-Hamas situation, though could apply to others. I grew up not learning much about emotions or making myself aware of them. Leadership classes in business school moved me to increase my self-awareness, by which I mean consciously being aware of what emotions I feel in a given moment and how the human emotional system works. I've found improving this self-awareness among my life's greatest improvements. I consider it a big part of maturation. As best I can tell, our emotional systems all share the same…

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35 Years Ago Today: Global Warming was front page news on the New York Times. Maybe Exxon knew. From then on, YOU DID TOO.

On June 24, 1988, the New York Times posted in its front page: Global Warming Has Begun, Expert Tells Senate You can say corporations and governments hid the problem from us, but not after June 24, 1988. From then on, we had no excuse to say we didn't know. We already knew of habitat loss, deforestation, plastic pollution, and tons of other problems. I'm curious, though. What are your excuses for not acting, even though they don't hold water? Why still cling to them? You'll feel better when you stop buying packaged food, air conditioning all the time, living in a bigger home than you need, and so on.

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Which is worse: litter, air, water, noise, or light pollution?

I've been trying to decide which pollution is worst. I pick up litter daily so I participate actively with it. Have you picked up litter regularly? When I do, I can't help speculate what in a person's mind and heart led them to decide putting a given piece of litter where they did. It leads me to see a dark and selfish part of humanity. That people claim not to connect their litter with the world drowning in it . . . How else can I put it? They're acting stupid. Air and water pollution are similar, just less tangible. Still, even on clear days, looking to the horizon in New York City, I see the air's yellow-brown tinge, and New York City doesn't rank…

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Why sustainability is so hard for you and polluting so easy, from the movie Requiem For a Dream

This post is part 4 in a series including Part 1: What you’ll get more of when you stop polluting: what you love most Part 2: Martin Scorcese on our relationship with pollution Part 3: Why sustainability is so hard and polluting so easy, from the moving Trainspotting I'm continuing today the artistic representations of "What you fear losing when you stop an addiction is exactly what you'll gain" or "You tell me what you fear losing when you stop polluting and I'll tell you what you'll gain" have simplified how I understand and express the emotional terrain people live in and have to navigate to act more sustainably. I posted about how Martin Scorcese in Goodfellas effectively represented how we feel about our lives…

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Why sustainability is so hard and polluting so easy, from the moving Trainspotting

This post is part 3 in a series including Part 1: What you’ll get more of when you stop polluting: what you love most Part 2: Martin Scorcese on our relationship with pollution Part 4: Why sustainability is so hard for you and polluting so easy, from the movie Requiem For a Dream "What you fear losing when you stop an addiction is exactly what you'll gain" or "You tell me what you fear losing when you stop polluting and I'll tell you what you'll gain" have simplified how I understand and express the emotional terrain people live in and have to navigate to act more sustainably. I posted about how Martin Scorcese in Goodfellas effectively represented how we feel about our lives while polluting:…

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I couldn’t make most people feel shame or guilt about sustainability. They’re already feeling so much, I couldn’t add more.

People don't like feeling guilt, shame, insecurity, helplessness, hopelessness, and other emotions that they often feel when sustainability and the environment come up. The emotions arise from what I found Abraham Lincoln said best: "Nothing is more damaging to you than to do something you believe is wrong." Doing something you believe is wrong will make you feel guilt, shame, and so on. People spend so much of their time denying and suppressing these emotions, they come to believe they aren't feeling them all the time. When someone brings up the topic, they become consciously aware of the emotions they already felt but tried to deny and suppress. They feel something like, "I didn't feel shame before this person brought up the environment. I feel…

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Racism, sexism, and the environment: why do people act on two but make excuses about the third?

The problems of racism, sexism, and environmental degradation existed before we were born. They will persist after we die. I've never heard anyone say about racism that they'd like to help but individual action won't solve it so they might as well keep doing racist things, that only governments and corporations can solve it so they shouldn't try, or that if we don't keep pursuing on racist paths we might revert to the Stone Age so we should keep doing racist things. I've never heard anyone say about sexism that they'd like to help but individual action won't solve it so they might as well keep doing sexist things, that only governments and corporations can solve it so they shouldn't try, or that if we…

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Meditation: Thoughts aren’t just ideas that arise and pass away. Each wants to hook you.

Meditation instructors often talk about thoughts arising and passing away in consciousness, as if they just come out of nowhere and go to nowhere. I've found otherwise. No part of your mind is superfluous. The human brain uses up too much energy for evolution to allow unnecessary parts to persist. Each part does something that helped your ancestors survive and pass their genes on to you. For example, some part of your brain interprets things that could look like faces to be faces, whether you want it to or not. So when face-like things enter your field of vision, that part of the brain puts a face into your consciousness. All parts of your brain, when activated, speak up into your consciousness when prompted that…

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Brief thoughts on the question/koan “who am I?”

Regular readers know one of my sidchas is meditating, which I've done for over a decade and regularly for years. I've posted about it lately. I've used a few different techniques over the years. Sometimes I use koans. One is Who am I? sometimes What am I? I also often examine consciousness, which is oddly both all of what we experience and slippery to get a hold of. Asking who I am while exploring consciousness, independent of thoughts, emotions, memories, senses, and other contents of my mind leads to other questions I found curious enough to repeat here. I hope the subtle differences of meaning aren't lost to readers. They aren't supposed to sound trippy, but reflective. They're not meaningless or pointless questions. Each is…

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Fifty-one

Different people define middle age differently, but having just turned 51 I think I'm in it by all definitions. Physical My first sense of my body physically declining came in my early thirties, when my potential to compete in ultimate began to decline. Before then, I always felt motivation to practice since I knew the next year my potential would be higher. After then, no matter how much I practiced, my potential would decrease the next year, which decreased my motivation to practice. Over the years, the physical decline continued. The biggest included the time to heal from injury and recover from hard workouts. In my second-to-last summer playing summer league I didn't play to be the best on my team, then in my early…

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Two questions nobody has ever answered and what to do about them.

How about a change of tone from my usual? Do you ever think about what consciousness is? Or why there's something, as in the whole universe, rather than nothing? I don't mean in some trippy way, or superficial like college freshmen talking about philosophy in the dorm hallway. These two questions, in various forms, have interested people since before history, but as best I can tell, no one has made any progress whatsoever: One question is: What is consciousness? In other forms: why do I sense thoughts that seem to have no tangible reality, yet feel as real as any physical sensation that all other humans seem to have, but I can't sense theirs in the slightest? Do animals have consciousness? Does anything else in…

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Health and longevity of other cultures
Affluence Without Abundance, by James Suzman

Health and longevity of other cultures

We tend to think we live in the most free, healthiest, longest-living, most egalitarian, most stable culture humans have ever had. In some cases, yes, but in others, it turns out otherwise. It seems we project onto other times and cultures what will make us feel better about our own. I like feeling good about myself, but an inaccurate view keeps me from improving my situation. I want to understand where we stand more accurately so I'm compiling relevant data and sources. I'll start with a few and add more as I come across them. Preindustrial workers worked fewer hours than today's, MIT: One of capitalism's most durable myths is that it has reduced human toil. This myth is typically defended by a comparison of…

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Do addicts get less of what they think they get more of?

I've noticed a trend in addiction. I wonder if anyone out there is an expert or knows. I tried looking up the pattern, but didn't find anything. Have you heard of the pattern? The pattern Every addiction involves a pleasure. Gambling makes some people feel like a winner. Alcohol makes some people feel social. Social media makes you feel connected. Sugar tastes sweet. Heroin makes you feel euphoria. Each pleasure is unique. The giving you an intense but short peak, it seems to me that addiction overall decreases exactly the pleasure the addict wants and thinks he or she is getting more of. They get less of it. Gambling addicts feel like winners, but actually lose money. Alcoholics feel social, but the people they meet…

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How to stay not depressed when living not how society tells you to

Living sustainably is easy. All humans did for most of human history. Animals do it. Living differently than everyone else can be hard, even when you live how they want. People push hard against people who remind them they aren't living by their values. Alison, the host of This Sustainable Life: Untethered, wrote to ask me how I handled the challenge around the time she wrote a post, The Diary Of An Addict, sharing the dawning of her of how much her life revolved around craving out of her control. She wrote: Have you heard of the Kubler Ross change curve? It outlines the emotional journey from starting a new project or change and the different phases that you inevitably go through.  I feel like…

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There is an ‘I’, it’s just not who you think it is.

Life poses two questions people have probably asked for thousands of years that I've seen zero progress in answering from any source: Why does reality exist?What is consciousness? Or, alternatively, why is there a sense of "me" or "I" that seems to exist outside reality? Regarding the first question, I can't imagine any way of finding an answer using the tools within reality. It's weird to ask or even conceive to ask "why is there anything?". But today I want to write about the second question. As far as I can tell, some time in the past, no humans existed and no consciousness existed. Some time farther back, no life existed, so I'm confident believing no consciousness like human consciousness existed. Somehow it came to…

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Sustainability basics almost everyone gets backward, twisting them up inside.

Things I've learned from experience: Apples taste sweeter than Ben and Jerry's, though not at first. Broccoli tastes better than Doritos, though not at first. Exercise feels better than heroin, though not at first. Not flying connects you with family more than flying, though not at first. Eating only local foods in season gives you more variety and connects you to more cuisines than foods flown in from anywhere, though not at first. Not flying teaches you more about other cultures and connects you with them than flying, though not at first. More electric cars pollute more than fewer cars, though not at first. More solar, wind, nuclear, and fusion doesn't mean less fossil fuels burned. Making a polluting system more efficient makes it pollute…

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My peaceful eating sidcha for this month

I've been avoiding things I devalue lately. After writing about the day after Thanksgiving, also known as Buy Nothing Day, I decided to strive to buy nothing but food that month and succeeded, if you don't disallow that I bought two things that I later returned. I'll write more about it when I eventually do buy something, as I'm still going. Next, I decided to avoid social media and news sites for January. Strictly speaking, I'm avoiding pages that refresh daily or faster, though allowing short-term checks for deliberate intent sometimes. I'll probably write more about it after the month ends. But I've done things like those sidchas before. A new one emerged from training a new host for a new branch of This Sustainable…

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Ten years (3,652 consecutive days)

I just finished my second set today of twice-daily burpee-based calisthenics. Normally, I do my second set in the evening, but since I started the habit on December 22, 2011 and today is December 21, 2021, today completes my first decade. I already finished my first decade of publishing blog posts, nearing 5,000. Here are all of them. 20 percent of the time has been on a single load of garbage. A third of that time I haven't flown. More than that fraction I've gotten up, made my bed, crossed the room, and turned off my alarm in under 60 seconds. Various other sidchas, though the burpee-based calisthenics is the most physically active and vigorous. Past Reflections What can I reflect? On past milestones I've…

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Euphoria from food

I feel a euphoria when eating fresh fruits and vegetables, in particular my famous no-packaging vegan stews. It's subtle enough to miss if I'm talking to someone or listening to a podcast, but wonderful. I'd pick it over the high from things refined from plants like coca, poppy, etc since I can do it every day my whole life with no unwanted side effects. It gives me plenty of wanted ones, like eating to full every meal and having defined abs, despite congenital conditions that if I eat more calories than I burn or excrete, I put on weight and that I almost can't stop eating until I'm full. I suspect the feeling comes from the slow release of sugar and maybe fat. It would…

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Buzzfeed’s privilege “calculator”: How I Did

Maybe you're one of the over four million people who have seen Buzzfeed's video illustrating how society affects us by having people step forward or backward based on their experience: https://youtu.be/hD5f8GuNuGQ I don't know what credence anyone gives the questionnaire, but I copied it from the YouTube page and answered it. Some answers I wasn't sure about, but tried to answer as honestly as I could. My Rating If I calculate right, my answers add to +2 out of a possible range -13 to +22. The average of those numbers is 4.5, so my score is below that average. Does this mean Buzzfeed considers me below average privilege? Or positive privilege? I don't know what the average score of people who have answered the questionnaire,…

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On depression

First, I'm not depressed if you saw the title and felt worried. I'm taking a break from my usual topics because I read an article on depression that hypothesized it was a different state of consciousness, not just another emotion. I'm not sure what that definition means, but depressed people often describe depression as something you can't understand unless you're really, truly depressed. Blue But every description I've heard sounds like what I've experienced. I've felt profoundly depressed at times and mildly depressed many other times. I haven't felt meaningfully depressed in a while, but I've never lost the sense of what it feels like. Over the years, I've found ways to avoid it become too deep so it would be hard to get out…

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Why do so many people lecture me on what it’s like to be a straight white male?

Why do so many people lecture me on what it's like to be a straight white male, and why is what they say invariably unlike my life? Do they tell other people what they should be like due to their sexuality, skin color, and sex? Why do they presume to know so much about me and what motivates them to tell me about my life? Why do they tell me so much more than they ask me? Why do they imply a homogeneity among straight white males? Why do they seem to want me to agree with them that my life was how they said, not how I lived it than for them to broaden their views? Why not treat me as a unique person?…

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Why does nearly everyone reject Gandhi’s advice?

Michael Jackson's song, Man in the Mirror, got stuck in my head: I'm starting with the man in the mirrorI'm asking him to change his waysAnd no message could have been any clearerIf you wanna make the world a better placeTake a look at yourself and then make a change It's clear: If you want to make the world a better place, take a look at yourself and then make a change. I know of nearly no one taking this advice. Everyone instead chooses to live by something like: if you want to make the world a better place, complain about what governments, corporations, and billionaires do and say what you do doesn't matter, so keep doing what causes the problem. I can understand dismissing…

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The two biggest chips on my shoulder

Since sharing my September 11 experience on the podcast, I lost $10 million on September 11, 2001. Here is what I learned from those who sacrificed and served, I've shared my story of loss with friends and family. As I have for twenty years, I hedged describing that loss with the context of those who died, those who volunteered to put themselves in harm's way with the intent to defend freedom (even if thwarted by their leaders), and their families. I shared that I was saved from dwelling on my sorrow by my need to pay my mortgage and eat. I had foregone most of my salary. Before Submedia, I lived on a graduate student stipend in Manhattan, meaning nearly no savings. I got a…

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